Hi Mom, I am in Sicily....

I talked to Trenton today, he was in Sicily, wow!
It was so good to hear his voice, he sounded happy and most of all safe!
I miss him, it has only been a week, and there are still 2 weeks until I can see him and hold him in my arms! WOW, what am I gonna do with myself.

It's bizarre that a) the kids are so far away from me, b) I haven't even been able to talk to Alyssa, not that it is so different anymore, c) that I am not with them

I guess that this is how life will be in about 10 years when they are both gone on their own. 10 yrs seems like a long time away, let's hope it doesn't fly by like the last 10 have.

I am looking forward to seeing them both grow and achieve and travel to places that even I haven't been, I guess that is part of being a mother. When the kids are young you are so stuck in what seems to be, "life" as you know it....but life doesn't really start until the kids go out on their own and show you that what you have sacrificed and taught them, is all for some greater purpose...that is what being a mom or a parent is really about.

I find it hard to believe I am missing out on the current life of one of my kids, but I also, for some reason, know, that I will be there for her when it's most important to her. I just don't know when that will be. For now I have to trust that the relationship that was built over 12 yrs still has some sort of strength to break through and bring her back to me.

I miss the kids, but I know that they are safe and happy and that is all that really matters.

Chones-out.